It was hard to fall asleep last night after everything that had happened. When 6:30 rolled around I had no desire to get out of bed. If only I could have a day to recuperate. The snooze on my phone went off again, I guess not. I jumped in the shower and blow dried my hair. Trying to be as quiet as I can because my parents were still sleeping and had to get up for work in a few hours. I plugged in the curling iron and went to find something to wear. Pulling out my handy dandy white flats that always seem to be my go to shoes when I don’t think anything else would look right. Well, maybe they’re just my favorite shoes. I start rummaging through what I have in my closet to find something that will look fantastic on me. There are tons of jeans a few cute tops and a couple dresses. I pulled out a cute little sundress. It was black and had some kind of flowers on it. Looks good to me, and my flats will work out just perfectly. It was already 7:15 by the time I put everything on and got situated. I grabbed some make up from my dresser and made my way to the bathroom. I don’t know what I’m doing I haven’t attempted to curl my hair since middle school. I have no idea what to do with foundation so I stick with the basics. Eye liner, mascara, a hint of eye shadow, and some chap stick. I don’t need to be getting Alex’s lips all glossy before school. Then everyone will really start talking.
By the time I was finished with everything it was already 7:50. He should be here in about ten minutes. I gather my school books and the homework I neglected to get done last night so I could put them in my bag for school. I thought about grabbing something to eat really quickly but my nerves thought better of it. I give myself a glance over in the mirror just to make sure I look okay. Okay did not describe the person I saw in the mirror. Whoever that girl is was beautiful. I’m beginning to like this girl. I know what I see but I still feel like the same old me. My phone vibrated.
I bet that’s Alex I say as I pull my phone from the pockets in my dress. Whoever thought of pockets on a dress is a genius! Can’t wait to see you today. We’ll see if you can make everything up to me. My breath caught in my throat. It wasn’t Alex. Now, I was nervous for a whole new reason. I really did not want to go to school today. The only good thing there was going to be Alex. There was a knock at the door.
“Hey.” Alex look quite handsome this morning.
“Hey.” I turned to grab my stuff so we could get this day over with when my phone went off again. See you soon was all it said. When I looked back up at Alex I must have looked some kind of crazy.
“Nothing, it’s nothing don’t worry about it.”
“It’s Matt isn’t it?” He pressed his lips together and you could feel the anger coming off him.
“Maybe, but don’t worry about it. He’s just being stupid.” I hoped I was right. I really did not want to fight with anyone at school today.
“Fine.” I could tell he was going to have a hard time letting this go.
“If anything happens or if I get any more text messages I’ll let you know and you can handle it. Sound fair?”
You could see him starting to calm down and relax a bit. “Fine, but I still don’t like it.” He grabbed me by the waste and pulled me into him. “Ya know what I do like though?”
“What’s that?” I wrap my arms around him.
“This.” He took me by the hand and twilled me around. “You look. . .”
I wanted to hear what he had to say so badly. “Look what?” I gave him a look.
“You look beautiful.” leaning down to kiss me I could feel the tingling on my lips before he even touched me. Pushing me back a little so he could really take a look at me he mouthed the letters W.O.W. it made me feel electrified to know he feels this way about me.
“Ready to go?” I could feel myself blushing. He took me by the hand
“Anywhere with you babe.” I didn’t even have to grab my books he swept them up for me as we walked out the door. We talked about silly stuff and listened to music on the way to school. Pulling into the parking lot I was as nervous as ever. There were so many new things going on today when yesterday I had nothing but my job and myself to worry about. Now there’s a whole shopping list of things to worry about. Alex wraps his arm around my waste and we start walking into school. Everyone is just staring at us. I’m not sure if it’s that he’s walking in with me or they’ve seen Matt and he’s been telling people about last night. Or, it could be the fact that I’m in a dress. Probably a combination of the three. Whatever the reason it’s making me uncomfortable. I could feel Alex hand grip a little tighter while we walked to my locker. “So, you got any plans after school?”
I bump him out of the way so I can get into my locker. “Yeah kind of, you see there’s this really cute guy that is giving me a ride home.” I’m trying my best to flirt with him. I only really know what I’ve seen out of the billions of movies I have at my house. You could tell he was getting flustered
“Oh, some guy huh. I bet he doesn’t mean anything to you. Why don’t you just ditch him and let me take you home?”
“I don’t know. The thing is I really kind of like him. Plus I’ve known him for a really long time and I’d hate to have to hurt his feelings.” I teased.
“Hmm, maybe I’ll just beat his ass then. Show him your mine.” He teased back then kissed me on the check. He put his hands around my waste pulling me into him so that I was leaning back on him. He bent down to whisper in my ear. “Steph, you really do look so beautiful today. I just wanted to let you know I feel like the luckiest guy in the world today.” I let him kiss my cheek once more before getting to class. “See you in a bit.” It was so weird having everyone watch me walking to class. Maybe it wasn’t the fact that I was with Alex this morning. Maybe it was just me. I never wear makeup let along curl my hair. I don’t think any of these people knew I even owned a curling iron. When I got to class all I could think about was Alex. I really hope this isn’t him just getting me to fall for him so he can turn out to be a jackass like the rest of his friends. As everyone filtered in I got some second glances. Some people looked confused, and some ignored me all together. I was used to the last one, so it didn’t really bother me. I sit beside a girl named Kallie Barns in my first period class. The first few weeks of school she would try and make small talk with me. After it didn’t really go anywhere I think she gave up. When she walked into class this morning it was a whole different story. Her mouth fell open.
“Damn Stephanie, I didn’t even know you owned a dress. You look.” Great here it goes I thought. “Nice.” Surprised I just stared at her for a second.
“Thanks.” I gave her a weak smile. Then looked over our notes from yesterday. This was the first time I haven’t done my homework ever. At least I can’t remember the last time I haven’t turned in a homework assignment. Trying to concentrate I heard her say something else. “What?” I looked up.
“I said, what are you all dressed up for? Hot date?” She gave me the thumbs up sign.
Alex’s perfect smile crossed my mind. “Kind of sort of.” Again shock was all over her face.
“Holy shit! Really? I was just joking. Who is it tell me everything!” She threw her books down on her desk and spun my direction. “Come on, spill it!”
“Alexander picked me up for school this morning.” Looking around wishing class would start because I really did not want to make a big deal about any of this. “We’re seeing each other now.”
Before she could even get anything out I was saved by Mr. Thomas. “Okay class, get out your homework from yesterday.” I went through the rest of class avoiding Kallie’s astonished stares and trying to pay attention to what was going on in class. The bell rung. Too bad I couldn’t stay in Math forever. My next class is English. Oh joy, time to see Matt for the first time since I punched him. Hurrying to my next class so I could get my books situated I was of course the first one in there. Normally Kallie is following not far behind so when someone came in behind me I didn’t think anything of it until the door closed. Due to all the school shootings and crazy people in the world our doors lock automatically when they’re shut. Mr. Creed, my English teacher, has hallway patrol between first and second period and stops to get coffee before heading to class so he’s normally the last one to get here. The sound of the door closing made me jump. Turning to see who had come in behind me I came face to face with Matt. Fuck my life I thought as I continued to my seat. Don’t be afraid Steph, just ignore him. The part of my mind that told me I should be this crazy fearless woman screamed at me. Stand up for yourself! Looking at the desk top I whisper the word change. Slowly lifting my head to face my fears I could now see Matt fully. I’d given him a black eye last night and just then I saw the purple and blue stamp I left of him face for the first time. The fact that I did that to him surprised me so much I let out a tiny laugh.
“Bitch, you think this is funny?” you could see the hate and anger in his eyes. If looks could kill I’d be dead long ago. On the inside I was freaking out, scared out of my mind. Matt is psychotic and there’s no telling what he was capable of. On the outside I tried to stay as calm as possible.
“Just a little.” Letting some of the fear show on my face. Change I know, but Rome wasn’t built in a day.
“Lucky for you I’ll let you make that smart ass comment up to me to.” He looked dark like something wasn’t quite clicking in that beautiful head of his, and that scared me. “Hmm, what can you come with? Hopefully it’s something good.” He looked my body up and down like I was some sort of prey. “Aw.” He smiled that beautiful smile of his. No matter how twisted his head is he still looked pretty good. He had something planned I was sure of that. Too bad I’m not into sick and twisted. “You got all dressed up for me.” until that moment he hadn’t made any movement towards me. Now he was so close I could feel the heat radiate off his body. I just sat there not knowing what to say. “Come on, I know you can think of something.” I felt his fingers brush up against my bare arm. It made shivers go down my spine. He was to close now. No matter how many times I tell myself to just be strong I just can’t. I just can’t help being scared.
“Matt stop. Just leave me alone.” Last night flashed in my mind when he held me to him. His grip was so tight. The door was locked and we were alone. I could feel the panic start to make my nerves on edge as he moved even closer to me.
“You got away from me last night but don’t think I’ll let that happen again.” He grabbed my arm and yanked me out of my seat.
“You got what you deserved Matt. I told you to stop and you wouldn’t.” I tried to stand my ground without him seeing how afraid he made me, but that was hard considering I was close enough to him I could smell what he ate for breakfast. “I’m sorry but. . .”
“Bitch, you’re sorry!” the sound of his voice was terrifying. “Saying you’re sorry won’t make up for any of this.” He pointed to his now black eye. I could help but let out a nervous laugh. He shook me around and threw me to the ground. I landed hard enough to know I was going to have a bruise in the morning. The fear started slipping away replaced with anger. I will never let anyone hurt me again. The more I thought about it the more pissed off I became. Change is baby steps right? I’m pretty sure I just learned to walk while I was being tossed around like a ragdoll. He wants a fight then fine that’s what he’ll get.
“Okay, you want the truth Matt. I’m not fucking sorry.” I hissed. “I’m glad I punched you in the fucking face. You should have never put your damn hands on me. I told you to stop and you didn’t. The only reason you were there in the first place was because of some stupid bet. You’re lucky that.” I pointed to his eye. “Was all you got?” for being such a no body and so timid all the time I really did have a mouth like a sailor when I was pissed off.
Rage spread across his face and I knew if I didn’t get that door open so everyone could start to flow in I was going to be in trouble. “You stupid little bitch. You punch me in front of everyone, give me a black eye and now you think nothing is going to come from it.” I saw his fist fly up like he was getting ready to swing. I panicked and instinct kicked in trying to get up from where he threw, but I was too late. I could feel the instant burn across my face as his hand slapped me. Tears started flowing instantly. Yanking me up off the ground he grabs my wrist. It feels like my arm is being pulled out of its socket and I struggled to get away. Everything was happening so quickly. As he was pulling me up into him I lifted my knee right into his stomach. I saw my chance to get away while he was bent over holding himself. Again instinct kicked in I started for the door when he grabbed my arm. In one swift motion he yanked me back around. I let me free hand ball into a fist and spun as hard as I could punching him in the face. “Stupid fucking whore! You’re going to pay for that.” Keys jiggled in the door so Mr. Creed could let everyone in for class. The distraction was all I needed to get away and I took every change I could get.
“Fuck you Matt. Go die in some fucking hole somewhere.” It was the best I could come up with before running down the hallway. I slid up against my locker having no way to get out of here because Alex brought me to school today. My brain went into overdrive trying to figure something out. My wrist were so achy and I could feel the hand print on my face sting as I tried to touch it. A few people walked by as I just sat in the hallway crying. Fuck this, I’ve got to get out of here. I didn’t even care about school at the moment I just wanted to leave. I put my book bag in my locker and headed for the doors. I didn’t want Alex to get into anything with Matt so I didn’t text him to tell him what happened.
As I started walking down the street to get as far away from school as I could I broke out my phone to tell Alex I wouldn’t be there the rest of the day. After I pressed send I slid my phone back into the pocket of my dress and didn’t look back. We lived on the edge of the school zone so it’s a ten minuet drive just to get to school. I don’t even want to think of how long of a walk this is going to be.